Beelzebuddy

4. Tell me about a movie/song/TV show/play/book that has changed your life.

… Don’t cry out loud
Just keep it inside
Learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall
Remember you almost had it all …

As I kid I heard this song performed on stage and it immediately struck a cord with me. Whether it contributed to me learning to live inside myself, or only reinforced an already existing trait, I turned more and more inward as a pre-teen and teen. On the outside I was a healthy, well adjusted, smart youngster who served as a model many parents wished their own children would follow. On the inside was a terrified, lonely, hurting soul which desperately craved a love and approval which was never received. I became so good at presenting a happy face that there was a period of several years during which I couldn’t physically cry. Oh if there were some way to go back in time and give that kid a big hug and say, convincingly, “No matter what, I will always love you.”

I hope that anyone reading this post with give themselves an emotional hug. Love yourself, believe in yourself. Only then can your provide the love others so desperately need.

“You cannot be lonely if you like the person you`re alone with.” — Wayne Dyer